Ekaterina Netchitailova

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Give Hope to Others

What is your mission?

A question of today from WordPress is ‘What is your mission?’

When I saw it, I decided to reflect on it in writing, as it’s a question I ask myself daily.

What is my mission?

You see, I really want to contribute to our humanity and in a good way. And I think, I have a lot of things to say that could help other people like me, leading a life with a severe mental health diagnosis.

I have bipolar disorder (the diagnosis varies, but it isn’t the point) because of my vulnerability to psychoses. I had a few of them, across two different countries, The Netherlands and England. These were amazing, beautiful experiences, but smashed once I would end up in a hospital. I would be given killing dose of an anti-psychotic, and then released back into the community as an invalid.

And yet, I would recover each time fully, and usually stop the medication which was prescribed to me, in order to lead my life as I wanted it. I wanted it all: a good job, a nice man, raising my son, socializing with friends, and writing, which is my biggest passion. It was all impossible on the doses the psychiatrists prescribe when you end up in a psychiatric hospital.

Nowadays I do take my medication as prescribed, thanks to a brilliant psychiatrist I met where I am now – in Friesland. My doctor found something that seems to keep me in balance while also causing almost no side-effects. This precarious balance I am determined to keep.

And I am also determined to continue living my life to the fullest, while also hoping that others with similar experience to mine, don’t loose their inner joy out of despair.

They say that psychosis is a terrible thing. They say that severe mental illness is chronic, and that with a severe mental health diagnosis, you can’t have a happy life.

I disagree with this. I think that everything is possible in this life. Even with a severe mental ‘illness’ one can lead a life full of meaning and joy.

It is possible.

Please, don’t take it as arrogance, but look at me. Despite the fact that I had several psychoses, I managed to move across countries, get a PhD in England, give birth to my wonderful son, have friends around the world, and enjoy my job, and life in general.  

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Ekaterina Netchitailova

I am a Doctor of philosophy, a university lecturer, writer, and a lover of cats, fine wine, books, theatre, and human eccentricity. Despite my last name ‘Netchitailova’ which means ‘unreadable’ in Russian, my greatest passions in life are reading and writing.

3 responses to “Give Hope to Others”

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    lecox

    My initial ambition when I was about eight years old was to marry my girlfriend and have a family. It’s hard to say what my life would be like if that ambition had not been interrupted.

    In my early teens I became a more serious student of the human condition. In those days there were problems with violence across the planet. In the U.S. there were race riots and political killings, In Ireland there were the Troubles. In the Middle East there was Arab terrorism and Israeli recrimination. And Europe was also experiencing terrorist attacks (such as the Olympics attack in 1972).

    I wanted to know what made people act so violently against each other. I didn’t want to bring children into a world where they could lose their lives for such an irrational reason, and I applied myself to the problem, while meanwhile studying art, and then electronics, so that I could support myself.

    I made what I felt was a breakthrough when I read of Hubbard’s concept of the “reactive mind.” This sounded like the answer I was looking for. A little later I learned about Suppressive Persons and later, the Third Party Law. Together these discoveries gave me answers, including a group that I could support who wanted to change this.

    Today I try to get people who aren’t interested in spiritual or emotional development to look at these materials and realize their significance. This is very difficult, as the missions of most people do not seem to align with a heartfelt desire to make the world better.

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      Ekaterina

      Hubbard has some amazing insights into the human condition. I agree with you on that.
      The problem of our society is that it is very materialistic where the pursuit of a more profound meaning in life, seems to be lacking.

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        lecox

        This has been the case for a long time. I think it has a lot to do with our low reality on our own past lives, and thus the truth of our spiritual existence. This is because our past life memories get wiped out after we die, which is not done elsewhere. We are being made stupid about this, so it is something we must intentionally counteract.

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I am a doctor of philosophy, a university lecturer, and a lover of cats, fine wine, dancing, theatre, and human eccentricity. I was born in the Soviet Union (Moscow). I am fluent in four languages, and have spent all my adult life studying (except from 18 to 19) working and living throughout Western Europe. Despite a surname-Netchitailova- that translates from Russian into English as “unreadable”, my greatest passions in life are reading and writing. My personal struggles have made me appreciate the manifestations of weirdness that exist everywhere.

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