You can be whatever you want

What alternative career paths have you considered or are interested in?

I found this question very interesting as I have not only considered an alternative career path, I tried several of them, and in different countries.

I worked as a translator and interpreter at Brussels’ committee for refugees and stateless people, as a library assistant during my master education (getting it for free thanks to my job), as a financial analyst of banks and portfolio manager in Amsterdam (five years), as a headhunter in Brussels, as a PHD student with a bursary twice (I dropped out of one in Amsterdam and finished a PhD in England), as a university teacher in media studies, and as university lecturer in marketing. I lived in four different countries, speaking different languages and walking off the beaten path.

I believe that such a rich experience probably allows me to reflect a bit on the topic.

I think that I learned to be anything that I want when I was a teenager first in the Soviet Union, and then in Russia. The old system based in the idea of communism collapsed in front of my eyes, and this led to harsh economic conditions for many people in Russia. We had to queue for bread and milk, and survived almost an entire year on the packages sent to us by the United States, distributed via schools. It contained dry milk, and a piece of disgusting sausage, but at that time it was food, and it was a meal, so that we didn’t die from starvation.

Because of a total change in regime and ideology, many people found themselves out of jobs, or in jobs that were no longer rewarding. Teachers and doctors were quitting their work in masses, in order to earn enough money to feed one’s family. They would try to set up their own business, or start working in a job that had nothing to do with one’s diploma but which would bring food on the table. My own dad and fathers of my friends, they all tried to set up an alternative career path, as continuing in one’s old job wasn’t any longer enough. PhD holders were driving taxi’s, actors would retrain as lawyers, and biology teachers would switch to teaching geography, at better paying schools.

At the age of nineteen, when I left Russia in order to study in Brussels for a degree in languages and translation, I wasn’t looking at the future with trepidation, but with hope. Russia taught me that there were endless possibilities in life. One just needed to work hard and believe in miracles. I got my job as a financial analyst of banks without any diploma or knowledge about finances. I had simply sent a letter to the boss of my future company, very short and concise, and he invited me for an interview, and we connected via discussion of literature. I was offered a job with a permanent contract on the same day.

I also worked as a headhunter. I sent my application letter to a recruiting company in Brussels, as I wanted to move from Amsterdam back to Belgium, where I had studied for my bachelor degree, and they called me ten minutes later to discuss my options. I was thinking of another job in finances, having learned them during my career in finances, but the lady on the other side of the phone, suddenly asked five minutes into the conversation:

“And how about working for us?”

I have to admit that Claire was also quite an unusual person, as I would discover when I got her as a colleague, but her question took me by surprise. Me? Working as a recruiter?

“Yes, yes,” Claire confirmed. “You speak several languages, you are clever and you have the ability to learn new things.”

I accepted her invitation for an official interview, went to Brussels to speak to four different people (including my future boss), and at the end of the day, got a job offer with a permanent contract within six months.

The same was for my PhDs. In life if one wants something, one just needs to try. I thought that I had lost my chance to have a PhD bursary when I quit my doctoral studies at the University of Amsterdam, but the universe proved to be very flexible. I wrote a PhD proposal right after I had emerged from a psychiatric hospital in England, was invited for an interview, and was offered a second PhD bursary, based on my own project of studies. I wanted to analyze Facebook, which I did, and now I am a Doctor of Philosophy.

Cool, right?

I also wonder whether it’s my vulnerability to psychoses that played a role in my life. Maybe, because of my ‘bipolar disorder’ I make a claim at life with more zeal? Maybe it’s because I want to show to the rest of the world that there is nothing really wrong with me, despite being, obviously, a bit weird?

Or maybe it’s just my personality that plays a role. I live each day to the fullest: studying, working, exploring, cooking and chatting with friends. I love life so much that I wake up several times at night, hoping that it’s already the morning and I can resume thinking and reflecting about life.

So yes, I think that one can become anything one wants, one just needs to dare and be able to take risks, and work hard towards one’s dream. Any successful career path asks for dedication, commitment and the capacity to exercise, sometimes, enormous efforts.

That’s all.

(weird me)



20 responses to “You can be whatever you want”

  1. Ekaterina,

    This is a wonderful post, and I am so glad that you have been able to achieve so many of your dreams!!!

    Interestingly enough, I know another former Soviet. He grew up in Moldova, and had to endure the tragic transition period during the fall, when everyone’s lives were turned upside down and a formerly wonderful lifestyle deteriorated into hardship and poverty.

    He was able to come to the US in his mid teens and receive his education in North America. He got a job in his field of study and has been extraordinarily successful in that.

    In fact, he experiences instantaneous success in virtually every activity or pursuit he has undertakes. The stars always seem to align in ways that leave me mystified.

    So, needless to say, that is the paradigm, formed through a lifetime of personal experience, by which he views the world. Understandably so.

    As a result, he believes that the same experience is shared by everyone else, and that failure or defeat is a simple matter of not trying.

    I have a different opinion, formed just like his, over a lifetime of personal experience, observation, and reflection.

    I love opinions! Especially those that are developed with some independence from a broader consensus! I think they are beautiful expressions of individual humanity, and they do not threaten me ☺️

    He recently announced in a very public setting that he admired Vladimir Putin 😆 He was obviously trying to provoke a reaction. I really didn’t want to see unpleasantness break out so I commented immediately that I think opinions are wonderful things that should be celebrated!

    And I told him the most beautiful thing about opinions is that they don’t matter at all! For at least 99.73% of us (actually far more but that’s a good place to start) they have absolutely no impact on our world! Even our personal hygiene is a greater force in reality (after all, if I don’t wash my hands after I use the restroom I could make others sick).

    All this to say that I honor and appreciate your opinion, and I love that you express it. But I know that most people don’t feel this way (it took me a very long time to arrive at this position myself).

    I don’t believe in debate, because from my experience it is not an effective use of time and energy. But I do appreciate the sharing of alternative viewpoints. Not for the purpose of changing minds, but for a dialectical contrast.

    If you are interested in hearing an alternate opinion in your space, I would be happy to share 🙂

    But this is YOUR space. And I know that even if you are not bothered by disagreement, your valued readers might be. And it is important for you to take all of that into consideration.

    Looking forward to future posts!

    1. Ah, please, do disagree!
      I love the debates and on top of it, I can change my mind too about topics when I hear an argument that is well-thought!
      And I am sorry, I should have asked before, but what is your first name?

      1. 🙂 I’m Tyson.

        I’ve thought a bit about the best way to express this. I know that the most effective method to communicate to most people is through personal stories. But I guess I am a little weary of writing those at the moment.

        There’s an abstract observation that I like to overlay on reality, a heuristic that helps me make sense of the world. I thought of sharing that but it seems a bit rigid and static. Maybe it’s more of a reflective tool than a communicative device.

        Your invitation prompted the elaboration of a fuzzy image drifting for a long time on the periphery of consciousness. Thank you for this! (I think I’m gonna use it as today’s post on my own page too! 😆)

        Abstract perspective #1

        Imagine a river wide and shallow and slow, drifting in the heat beneath a burning sun. In the center of the river is a deeper channel. Anything floating here will be carried inexorably towards its goal – a destination somewhere downstream.

        But further away from the central channel more frequent obstacles are encountered on the path; sandbars, stumps of dead trees, sharp rocks, maybe even vicious jags of metal from discarded bedframes and washing machines or whatever.

        On the banks of the river savage predators lurk. Great peril of violent death shadows those who travel too close.

        Now, imagine that the river is packed with blind humans floating on inner tubes. At all times we are oriented downstream. (Maybe there is a tiny drogue on the back of each innertube, I don’t know). We are deeply aware of the experiences of those we can sense in our immediate surroundings.

        However, there is also a great deal of commotion. There are sounds all around us. Small cries of joy from those nearby but perhaps a bit closer to the central pass as they clear their obstacles; quiet groans of frustration from those who are tangled with snags. There are great raucous whoops of triumph and exhilaration from those traveling the central path of the river. And there is an abundance of pained moans from those injured to varying degrees by the more fearsome obstacles further from the central current.

        And sadly, many who suffer on their paths flail violently and lash out at others with the very shards that pierce them, causing great injury and even death. The shrieks of profound pain from the victims of assault mingle with the wails of those who fall prey to the predators lurking on the banks.

        To some degree we can orient our ears to focus more on the signals coming from either side – the clamor of joy or the cries of despair. Most prefer to tune out the sounds of suffering as much as possible. Some are captivated by them and instead focus all their attention there. A few others, through their own natural temperament combined with the input received on their paths, are fixated on creating a clear picture of this world they inhabit. These try their best to listen equally to sounds from all sides.

        We who float have a miniscule capacity to propel ourselves – we can splash our hands in the water. We can splash a little or thrash a great deal. It just depends on how we feel and our impression of the nature, presence, or absence of the barriers in our path. Most put in a strong and steady paddling.

        In truth, the overall effect of our efforts on our forward progress is more or less the same. Those who devote more energy to splashing may get some pleasurable cooling effect that makes them more comfortable. But all have their own unique, finite allotment of focus and energy available to them. The ones who invest most of their energy into paddling have less to apply towards the other activities available to them, or to their relationships with their fellows.

        Some try to splash closer to the center of the stream to join those who travel the central channel. Others paddle towards those crying on the outside to offer support and solidarity. But the stream is jammed with the multitude attempting their own maneuvers. A few, mostly those closest to their objective, manage to attain the position they seek on the path.

        Nevertheless, almost everyone is convinced that their passage downstream is the result of their own efforts.

        [This is an uncommon perspective shared by few. For us, the realization is this – None of us choose where we are placed upon the river, for that is the will of the gods].

      2. Beautiful writing Tyson!
        I agree and disagree. Unfortunately, not all of us get the same chances from birth. Imagine if you are born into a poor family in one of the poor African country? Yes, life then requires a lot of efforts (and I agree with you that those who want something from life, put equal efforts), but different efforts from the ones living in the west, in a relative comfort, bestow (sorry, I am not sure if it’s a correct English word).
        Also I noticed that, when one is relatively comfortable in life, he/she might get lazy and stop putting efforts into living the life fully. Reality tv replaces conversations and friendships with people, the abundance of food in the stores stops one from being interested in how others, in other parts of the world, live.
        But I was referring to my bipolar disorder in regards to massive efforts I did have to summon to get where I am now.
        You can’t imagine how difficult it is to live when you are being injected with a drug that stops you from feeling, enjoying small pleasures of life, and hoping for recovery.
        So, yes, massive efforts, unbelievable hardship I had to undergo in my life, to reach the point where I am now.

      3. I didn’t mean to belittle your hardships and struggles!!! 😳

        I try to remind myself that I can’t know the struggle and pain that others have faced. That said, I have spent a bit of time exploring your site. I think you have endured grievous trials and struggled incredibly! And I am delighted at the personal success you have achieved!

        (In fact, I have a weird personal philosophy that compels me to express my profound GRATITUDE to you for the hardships you have endured! 🥹 I haven’t written much about it but I’ve added a little more text to my Try to Love post that addresses it a bit, since it features a little in that song).

        Also, I do want you to know that even if I can’t know your hardships and struggles, I appreciate your experiences maybe a bit more than most. My ex-wife suffers from a horrible litany of mental torment and life history trauma and neglect. The severity of her condition overshadowed my own mental health issues and neurodivergence to such a degree that I wasn’t diagnosed with Bipolar II, or treated properly, for far too long. Though it has worsened progressively, my hardships are a pale shadow of hers.

        I will leave it at that. 🙂 Please know that I admire you and wish you nothing but continued and extravagant success in ALL things!!!

        And thanks as always for the opportunity for reflection and expression ☺️

      4. Wow Tyson, with all the struggles you mentioned, you remained an extraordinary human being!
        I will look at the post you mentioned. Sorry, for the lack of time I only read your posts since I subscribed to your blog. You are a really good writer!
        I enjoy debating with you!
        Now I understand, yes, lots of us struggle and put massive efforts into claiming that little glimpse of happiness from life.
        We all want the same things: love, good job that pays well, friends and family around, and good health. We all put efforts in it, but people with bipolar disorder have to fight hard for it.
        😊

      5. ☺️ You are so kind! ☺️

        Please know that I don’t place ANY expectation on you to read anything I write, or like it, or even agree with it! ☺️

        I think you express yourself beautifully as well! (Especially considering that English is just one of your collection of languages! 🤯)

        Actually, I read the sample of Elena and I was really enjoying it! I could get a free Kindle version from Amazon, but that didn’t seem right.

        I was going to buy the paperback, (I like real, old fashioned books!) But then I wondered how much of the purchase price you even receive as the author.

        I thought about asking you if there was another way to get a copy that might give you a better portion of the proceeds, but we hadn’t exchanged much communication at that point so I thought I should wait.

        But now I have. So let me know! 😆

      6. I can send you a copy by post (real book) or send it to your email.
        Oh, is it free on Amazon kindle? I didn’t realise that.
        But it’s ok. That book was meant to be shared with others.
        It’s for my memoir that took me 20 years to write that I want a traditional publisher!
        I don’t make any money on Elena story.

      7. It’s only free if you have kindle unlimited. Otherwise it’s $5.

        I would be happy to pay you the $15 it would cost to purchase the paperback from Amazon, + your shipping costs if you were open to sending me a copy!

        (Actually I would deeply prefer that! – an actual physical expression of an actual human being’s experiences and creativity, dispatched by the hand of the actual human person who created it!)

        You might be able to scrape my email from my comments, but I will send you a message on your site to arrange it ☺️☺️☺️

  2. That’s all? Another fabulous post! I loved this one.

    As for my aspirations … I liked Machine Design but found that the ‘real money’ was in management not design.

    There was talk about Quality Control, Production Control, Statistical Process Control and the like. all to gain better positions. Also Purchasing, Human Resources, and other sleep inducing jobs.

    ‘Dual Path’ careers, meaning stay in research and become a guru-like ‘keeper of the vision’ to encourage staff engineers coming up to go into design improvements rather than becoming paper-shuffling accountants, or just scheduling and managing ‘teams’ on ‘projects’. A trick to keep everyone from bailing out to become do-nothing managers? Give ’em a title and more money.

    Some nights I felt like stopping to throw up from a long day ‘turning the crank of nothingness’.

    I would have made a good farmer. Lol

    1. Yes, I would enjoy being on a farm too!
      And sometimes, I crave for a physical job, such as cooking but for now, I am happy where I am in terms of my ‘career’. I don’t look at it though as career but more as a job I simply love, and it took me a lot of efforts to be where I am now. Massive effort!

  3. […] thanks to Ekaterina for her post! It prompted development of a very fuzzy concept drifting on the edge of consciousness […]

  4. When I was a child I wanted to be a scientist.
    When I was a teenager I wanted to be an artist.
    But I didn’t know how to live as an artist to I studied a fall back skill, which is electronics technology.
    I was happy with that until I got involved with my church.
    Then I also learned bookkeeping and some other skills.

    No one ever told me that I needed a “career path” so I never got one.

    No one ever told me I could “be whatever I wanted” either. It is a basic truth, but somewhat esoteric. Can a baby born on the trash dumps of Mumbai be anything she wants? Maybe not. This is actually a rather advanced skill, if you take it literally. So one should not feel too upset if one settles for less. There is always room for personal expansion.

    1. Dear Larry,
      It’s only today that I realised I didn’t answer to you.
      My apologies! I was in a busy assessment period at my job!
      Well, my mum, my wonderful mum, taught me that I can be anything I want.
      And despite very difficult adolescence hood, I somehow retained that thought, the idea that life is a sequence of miracles and chances, and just tried to do what I fancied. How to transfer the same encouragement to my son though? That’s something I ask myself everyday.
      Tell me more about the work you did once you discovered your church.
      I am very curious.
      Here, in Amsterdam they had very interesting job openings but you know all too well that I can’t apply while I am on psychiatric drugs.
      But hey, thanks god, I love my current job!

      1. In 1982 I joined the Sea Org. From the church’s website: “The Sea Organization is a religious order for the Scientology religion and is composed of the singularly most dedicated Scientologists—individuals who have committed their lives to the volunteer service of their religion.”

        I worked in a service org – ASHO. It is similar to the one there in Amsterdam. But this sort of work is not like a regular job. You don’t apply for a position and get hired, you get assigned to a post. I worked mostly in administrative jobs. It was always a lot of work, but among a group that was very supportive and did everything together.

        I did that until a medical problem became too distracting. That was 2008. I still value my time there.

      2. Are you still involved with the church in one way or another?

      3. Yes, I definitely am, Ekaterina.

  5. I Want to Become a Makeup artist!

    1. It’s a good job!

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I am a doctor of philosophy, a university lecturer, and a lover of cats, fine wine, dancing, theatre, and human eccentricity. I was born in the Soviet Union (Moscow). I am fluent in four languages, and have spent all my adult life studying (except from 18 to 19) working and living throughout Western Europe. Despite a surname-Netchitailova- that translates from Russian into English as “unreadable”, my greatest passions in life are reading and writing. My personal struggles have made me appreciate the manifestations of weirdness that exist everywhere.

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