What is your favorite form of physical exercise?
If you met me when I was twenty-seven years old, you would probably be a bit overwhelmed by me.
When I was twenty-seven years old I lived in Amsterdam, and worked as a financial analyst of banks and a portfolio manager in a nice financial company. I was a ‘perfectionist’ then, trying to excel in everything I did.
I would wake up at six o’clock in the morning and run for an hour, before a quick coffee and going to my work, where I was often the first to arrive.
I would work hard the whole day and leave late, burying my personal insecurities in being constantly busy. I was also studying Dutch in an intensive manner, and went to the gym after work. I was there daily!
Later at home, I would relax a bit, with a platter of cheese and some wine, and my cigarettes.
From exterior I led a cool life. I was living in one of the most beautiful cities in Europe, had a great job, friends, and my sanity. I was athletic and fit, both mentally and physically.
But in reality I was dealing with a big trauma from my adolescence hood, experiencing constant stomach pain, and lacking confidence in myself and my abilities.
So, it came as no surprise really, that on one rainy November morning, I lost my mind and ended up in a psychosis. It is associated with mental illness, but in my case it felt like liberation, because after my first psychosis, I radically changed my life. I stopped being a perfectionist and started to take my health much more seriously. My stomach pain was gone after my psychosis, and it led me to question choices in life I had done so far, with one of them, exercising my body like mad, every single day, in both the morning and the evening. When I was once checked by a doctor for my heart rate, she asked me whether I was a professional athlete, due to very low heart rate.
And so, instead of eating cheese platter, I started to cook normal, healthy meals. I stopped running in the morning, and abandoned the gym. Nowadays I can’t stand them.
But I do exercise. I exercise each morning for about fifteen minutes, and I walk everyday in the afternoon.
And walking IS the best sport, so gentle on the body, and yet you move, while enjoying the views, communicating with nature and witnessing the change in seasons.


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